listening to dashboard... a bad sign.

so i made plans with someone only to have them canceled relatively last minute because that person is an inconsidate flake. well not technically, because technically said flake it helping out a pregnant friend-which only makes me mad at the dumb whore for getting knocked up after a first date instead of said flake for not haning out with knocked up girl another day. i mean why does flake have to be supportive on a saturday night. why not be supportive on a sunday afternoon on wednesday night??? also said flake has done this to me before... i understand its hard to be pregnant, especially when youre unwed and probably breaking up with the baby's daddy but still... not very femminist of me. this whole screw the sisterhood thing. so now its saturday and am chilling by myself becuase its easier to be emo that way, and contemplating everything that's been said since may in a benign effort to figure out why i am still literally putting up with shit. and as if to make my bad way worse i got my period. adding insult to bleeding my ipod mometarily stopped working i.e. it suddenly said i had no music on it which gave me a minor heart attack. and all i think of is how retardly excited i was about tonight, looking forward to an actual date when i should have known the flake would flake. so i feel insane and like eating everything in the house because that's always fun to do when feeling low. so yeah thats life.